Thursday, September 3, 2015

Change Will Make or Break You

Change.
It's a funny thing. Possibly one of the most feared ideas of our day and change.
I can't help but wonder why? What is it about change we are so afraid of? What's so wrong about it?
Perhaps it's the unknown, the uncertainty of it all. We are afraid of what we don't understand and we are afraid of futures we cannot see.
But I don't think it needs to be that way. I've always been a firm believer that fear is a choice we make. Change doesn't have to be a threatening and somewhat forboding choice. 
And that's the point of this whole blog post. To not be afraid of change. 
There are countless changes in stories. Plot twists that make or break the characters, depending on their choices. Cinderella couldn't keep sweeping floors. Sleeping Beauty had to wake up. Rapunzel couldn't stay in her tower forever.
So this is my message to you: don't fear change. Don't be afraid of the plot twists of your life. 
They may very well lead you to happily ever after.

Friday, August 28, 2015

Goodbye, Summer

This post is dedicated to two of the most awesome women I know--thanks Becky and Shayla!

As my father put it, beginning this afternoon, I am unemployed.
Now, that may sound like a bad thing. It may seem like a tragic thing. But it's not. Because it means I'm going to go back to school (yay!).
But it also means I will not be working with two really awesome people. Shayla, Becky, you guys rock and I'm going to miss working with you a lot.
And that's what this post is for. Goodbye to my long summer and goodbye to a job I doubt I will ever find one like again.
So, thank you. Thank you, Becky, for a job. Thank you for helping me with the financial situation. And thank you, thank you, thank you for helping me to grow this summer (whether you realize it or not). Over this summer, I feel like I've grown as a person. I guess that's the thing about confidence--other people can help you find it without either of you realizing it.
And Shayla? Thank you for being an amazing friend when I needed it the most.
Thank you for the memories this summer. I won't forget it.
And, to you my readers, take this post to heart. Find good people and never forget them.
You won't regret it.

Sunday, August 16, 2015

I have always seen myself as a ghost.
The invisible girl, the one in the back of the class, that girl that you can never name but might be able to place her face.
But this year has taught me otherwise. 
I guess what I'm trying to say is that we all have trials and I suppose this is mine. It's like in all those stories I was raised on. It's always when things seem the darkest that we finally see the light. And rarely do we know our happily ever afters are coming for us. 
Cinderella didn't expect a chance to find her prince again after the ball.
Rapunzel never imagined she would leave her tower.
And I have serious doubts that Sleeping Beauty ever thought she would awake to her prince.
You don't get to choose when your happily ever after comes. But it will. After all the pain and sorrow and loneliness, it comes.
Being a ghost, I think that's been the darkness in my life. Being invisible has been the hardship I have lived with. 
I'm a strong believer that we get to choose, not our hardships, but how we handle them. Cinderella could have been horrible to her step family right back. But she didn't. She was kind. 
And this is me, choosing to deal with the cards dealt to me. 
I have lived the life of a ghost.
But now? I am alive.
And not only that, but I am ready to show the world that not all ghosts are ghosts to stay.
So this is me saying: "Hello, world. My name is Brittany Oldroyd and I am ready to show myself."
I hope the world is ready for me.
I was raised on once upon a times.
As a child, I always dreamed myself into being a princess. The damsel in distress, waiting for a prince to come and sweep me off my feet. Someone who would pick me up and make me feel like I deserved to wear the crown on my head.
Of course, I think I forget about the dragon. The fire-breathing beast standing between the knight in shining armor and his princess. 
And I think we all forget about the prince's journey. We know he's going to slay the dragon, we know he's going to kiss his princess and they're going to ride off into the sunset and it's going to be happily ever after.
But what about our brave knight's "once upon a time"? How did he even learn about the princess? And why is he going to her rescue? Because he's heard she's pretty? Because he's looking for honor and glory? Because it's the right thing to do?
The knight might start out with shiny armor but I don't think it's still gleaming by the time he finds the princess. I think his journey is as long as hers is.
Maybe that's the point. Neither one has a kind path. While she must wait, he must slay a beast far stronger than he. 
My knight hasn't come yet but I think that's okay. Because he's still on his journey. His armor may still be too shiny, too untried. Maybe he simply isn't ready to face his dragon.
Someday, he will though and when he does, I'll be waiting.
Our happily ever after isn't going anywhere.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

How to Work Out Like a Writer (AKA a boss)

Today, I want to talk about the workout I've been doing for the last couple of weeks. It's been working really well for me. It's longer but you can split it up if you don't have as much time.
Okay, so here we go:

1. Go for a quick warm-up run (I run up and down my street).
2. Kickbox (I do around 200 punches, along with some kicks and ducks randomly thrown in) against a bag.
3. Arm workout (I just look up different ones on Pinterest, usually ones with weight training).
4. Leg workout (Again, Pinterest-I like the ones with squats and wall sits mostly).
5. Abs workout (What else? PINTEREST. I like ones with a lot of crunches and planks).
6. I finish up my workout by stretching (I'm trying to get my splits so I do a lot of split stretches in here).

And voila! There you go. That's my workout plan. If you like this, leave me a comment. If I get enough comments, maybe I'll go more into depth into my workouts. Share some videos.
Let me know what you think!

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Christ and Lord of the Rings: The Connection

So, I know what you're thinking. What does a fantasy trilogy have to do with christianity? Some of you (those fantasy haters) may even be wondering what a fantasy trilogy has to do with anything.
Well, several things.
The Lord of the Rings, written by J.R.R. Tolkien, is a book trilogy following the journey of a wide cast of characters as they struggle to destroy the One Ring and defeat the dark lord Sauron.
There are about a million different connections between Christianity and these books but today I am focusing on one: Samewise Gamgee.
If you've read the books or seen the movies, you're probably smiling to yourself or yelling excitedly. Sam is a fantastic character. What you might not know is that he is a Christ-like character. Here's how:
1. A faithful friend
Sam is ALWAYS there for Frodo. No matter what. When Frodo tries to go off alone to destroy the ring without taking any one else from the Fellowship with him (in Fellowship of the Ring), Sam gets into the water to follow him. He tells Frodo that yes, he's leaving but that Sam is coming with him. This is a representation of Christ. Christ is always there for us, maybe not even when we want him to be.
2. He will always come back.
During Return of the King, Frodo tells Sam to leave, taking Gollum's word over Sam's. When this nearly kills Frodo, Sam comes to the rescue, with the phial of Galadriel. Even after how awful Frodo was to him, Sam saved him. Christ is the same with us.
3. He will carry us.
At the end of Return of the King, as they have almost reached the top of Mount Doom to get rid of the ring, Frodo can no longer go forward on his own. To this, Sam says, "I can't carry it for you, but I can carry you!" He the carries Frodo the rest of the way to the top. Christ will never carry our loads for us. He can't. But he can carry us through these burdens.
Need I say more?
Sam is a symbol for Christ. Here's a final quote from Sam to show that he was wise and good and Christ-like from the end of The Two Towers:
"I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something...That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo... and it's worth fighting for."
-Sam, The Two Towers

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Why Humans are Awesome

Good morning all!
So I work five days a week, as many of us do. During these days of vacuuming and dusting, I often spend my time in some pretty deep thought.
For example, yesterday.
Yesterday, I was dusting and thinking to myself. Here's what I decided:
Humans beings are absolutely incredible. We have this drive that the rest of living things on Earth do not have. The drive to make a difference, to change something, to make something better. Animals do not share this drive. They live to survive. In a sense, humans survive to live. 
Think about it. Every person on this Earth wants to do something great. No one wants to just eat and sleep. Why? Because we know we are capable of so much more.
I think this is why I'm a writer (honestly, I've never really known what peaked my interest). I want to make a difference and, for me at least, this is how I can. I can teach truth and I can touch hearts. That's how I change things.
Everyone has a drive. Something they wish to accomplish, even if they have become bitter and cynical enough to say that they don't.
So here I am today saying, DON'T LET GO OF YOUR DRIVE. This is what makes you human, this is what makes you so amazing. 
Don't let that go.

Thursday, May 7, 2015

Technology...Ugh

Ah, technology. That thing we all need but we all kind of hate. If there was ever a love-hate relationship, it is with our devices.
You may wonder what happened that would lead me to speak on this matter tonight in particular. You may wonder where this is coming from.
Well, dear reader, it all started yesterday, when my computer decided to commit suicide.
That's right. My computer DIED yesterday.
I got home for work, ready to go for a quick run, when I open my computer. Aha, that's where the trouble starts. My screen freaks first. Followed by the odd updating and undoing the changes forevermore. Indeed, we've got problems.
Well, I took my mother's advice and took it to Geek Squad. Alas, they couldn't help me. My computer is toast. It committed suicide, stealing my documents with it.
Lucky for me and for my darling readers, I keep everything backed up online and on a flash drive (YOU'RE WELCOME). I only lost a few chapters of Forbidden. Chapters that weren't really working anyway.
Now, with a new laptop in hand, I write to you dear readers about the unfortunate betrayals of technology.
The lesson here? Don't put any kind of faith in a piece of hardware.

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

The Tale of the Exploding Sparkling Water

So, the scene is set.
I'm at work, back in the car with my co-workers, just finishing the first house of the day. It's lunch time.
Little do I know how, ah, exciting this lunch day will be. I pull out my peach flavored sparkling water, which is delicious and unopened.
I have a feeling you know where this is going.
You're right. I start to open it. Really just crack it open to let this fizz die down. But when I give it one twist--JUST ONE TWIST, MIND YOU--lunchtime becomes a time of chaos, embarrassment, and hilarity. Mmm, delicious, right?
The drink starts fizzing overboard, seriously bubbling all over the place. I mean, EVERYWHERE. For a minute, I just sit there and squeal (Maybe I was too surprised to actually make a sound but I was squealing inside). And then finally the bubbling stops and I have this fountain of sparkling water in my lap. Sticky and gross. EW.
We all laugh. It's pretty silly and unexpected. And there's my excitement for the day: attacked by a store-bought drink.
No worries, all ends well with a pair of dry pants from my car.
Lesson learned? Use caution when opening sparkling drinks.

Sunday, April 19, 2015

Ramblings of a Writer: Creatures of Habit, Creatures of Change

I'm no psychologist.
I just wanted to make that clear from the beginning. The title of this post might make it seem as if I am, but I'm not.
Of course, I am a writer and that does give me some insight into human nature. Which, of course, brings us to the post of the day.
I was sitting in my church meetings this morning when a thought crossed my mind: humans are amazing creatures.
Think about it. We are creatures of habit and routine. We love to feel safe and loved. We love to know and understand what's going on. But we also are capable of being creatures of change. We want to explore and go on adventures and really live.
That's absolutely incredible to me. Because we want to be safe but we also want to grow into something bigger. We, as humans, want to make a difference in the world. We care about things, even when we like to say we could care less.
You're probably reading this and thinking what's the point? Well here it is:
Step outside of the box. Come on. Right now. I'm doing it too. Step out of what feels safe and step into the world. Be part of the world. Change it. Change yourself.
You owe it to yourself to be the person you want to be, not the person you are. Because the truth of the matter is that if you're not challenging yourself, what are you doing really?
Well, that's it for my ramblings. Happy Sunday all!

Sunday, March 8, 2015

Review: TORN (Five Short Stories from the World of the Invincibles)

Okay! So the short stories I have been posting have been compiled into a book on Amazon in celebration of the upcoming TRAPPED. Here's a review of TORN:
"TORN: Five Short Stories from the World of The Invincibles by Brittany Oldroyd are well constructed stories that leave you curious. An introduction to some interesting characters with real tales to tell. A nice prequel setting you up for what I imagine to be a very good series. The author has a very natural writing voice that is both down to earth and inviting."

-brenda


Sunday, March 1, 2015

The Editor in my Head

You may have heard that the editor and the writer often argue, to put it nicely. Well, here's an idea for you: what if they're the same person?
Yes, I am in fact talking about myself. I used to just be the writer. I had that mindset through and through. And then college happened.
I took an editing class last fall. Which was interesting and great. But it seems to have warped my mindset on writing. When I read a book, mine or anyone else's, I can be very analytical. Of course, I can also just be very creative. It all depends if I'm being the writer or the editor.
To some, this might be a great inconvenience. I have found it to be very good for my writing.The key is to learn how to turn it off.
Now, this may seem like a pointless blog entry to most of you. I mean, who cares? You should. Here's why:
1. Writers should be good editors.
2. And editors should be good writers.
For you writers out there, this is a skill you really should learn. See, as a writer, your creativity is endless. But sometimes that means we write things that, really, shouldn't be written. Bad dialogue, bad prose. Not what the public wants. And that's where the editor comes in, with a very scrutinizing analysis. Think about what would happen if you could have both. Think about what would happen if you could learn to turn each side on and off (something I'm still working on). Your skill as a writer would be unmatched!
So that's my little speech for the day. Write like an novelist, with all that awesome creativity and unparalleled imagination. But read like an editor. Find the flaws and fix them.
Trust me. TOTALLY WORTH IT.
Okay, that's it. Thanks guys! As always, feel free to comment!

Saturday, February 28, 2015

No Perfect People

Today, I would like to take a moment to talk about this beautiful painting.
It's one of my absolute favorites.
A picture of the Savior holding a crying young woman.
The first time I saw it, it hit me hard. Because there no such thing as perfect people. Look at the woman. If we're going by stereotypes, she's not perfect. Far from it. It doesn't matter though. The Savior comforts her.
Sometimes, we forget that we can get comfort, no matter what, no matter when. But we can. He is always there.
This gospel is not for perfect people. It's meant to bring us together. It's meant to bring our gifts and talents together in a way that can help all of us get closer to Christ.
And, really, if you think about that, it's kind of beautiful.

Friday, February 27, 2015

Short Story #5: THE CHILD

THE CHILD
It’s the first day of second grade.
Mom drops me off at school, waving with the usual “be safe and make choices” she gives me every day.
I ignore her and walk into school. Well, trudge, really. I’ve never liked school very much.
For the most part, it’s a normal, boring day. Class, lunch, friends. Easy enough. Couldn’t be more boring. I just want to play outside.
Of course, a kid like me could never go a whole day without something happening. A kid like me never makes it through a day without getting in trouble.
And it’s the kind of trouble that gets kids like me sent to bed without dinner.
Or dessert.
I’m about ready to run outside, to find Mom’s car. I stop. Listen. Sneering voices, laughter, sniffling.
I turn the corner, peer down the hall. Three third graders and one second grader. He’s in my class. I can’t remember his name.
He’s the quiet one. The teacher’s pet. The kid I usually steer clear off. Too smart to have fun.
The scene is like something out of a Saturday morning cartoon. The smaller kid getting pushed around, three big bullies laughing.
I hate bullies.
I always have. Not for the usual reasons. Not because I’ve been bullied or because I used to be a bully or because I had a sibling that was pushed around.
I hate bullies because wimps are the only kids that bully other kids. And it drives me crazy. What’s the point? What’s it going to do for you? Why is that going to make you feel better about yourself?
“Hey!”
I step in the hall, make my entrance. The bullies stop, the small kid from my class looks surprised. He knows who I am. I’m the loudest kid in class. Not easy to forget.
“Who’s that, Chancey?” one the third graders mocks, shoving him. “Your girlfriend.”
Gross.
I walk forward, step right up to him. We’re about the same height. I’m tall for my age, tall for a girl, tall for a second grader.
“Knock it off,” I say.
The bully is laughing. He thinks this is funny. He thinks I’m kidding. He thinks I’m just a silly girl.
Fine.
I bring back a tight fist, punch him in the nose. That gets his attention. It should. He just got punched by a girl. A girl a whole year younger than him.
“Leave him alone.” I’m glaring. “I don’t mind beating up a group of boys.”
They’re staring, glaring, sulking off, and I turn my attention to the kid they were picking on. Chancey, they called him.
“You okay?”
I grin. “Good thing I don’t care.” I pause. “I’m Kate, by the way.”
“Alec,” he says. “Thanks.”
“No problem, Nerd.”
“Alec,” he corrects.
“Hey, I just offered to beat up a kid for you. I can call you whatever I want.”
He rolls his eyes.
“So, I guess I’ll see you tomorrow, Nerd.”
“See you, Kate.”
I walk off, run outside, meet my mom in the parking lot. I hop in the car and she starts to drive. “What took you so long?”

“Nothing. I just had to help a friend.”

*****Okay! So that was the last of the short stories. Next week, the collection will be available as an ebook. Stay posted for details! Thanks guys!*****

Monday, February 23, 2015

Book Trailer: TRAPPED

Okay, thanks to the amazing Naomi Bergstresser, I have my book trailer for Trapped! Click on the link to see it on Youtube or watch it right here in this post!
Trapped Book Trailer: Youtube
Thanks guys! For more information on Trapped, check out my website tab: Published Books!

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Powerful Women, Powerful Heroines

I want to take a moment to be a little passionate.
We all have our passions, our beliefs, the things we feel very strongly about. For me, that's creating powerful female leads in a story and showing women their own power.
Now, I'm not sexist or anything. I'm not saying men are useless, I'm not saying men aren't important. They can be heroes, just as easily as women. But I do believe it is more common for women to see themselves as victims, as damsels in distress.
What a very mistaken concept.
Women are powerful creatures. It is rare for us to believe it, but we really are. We have the strength, the compassion, the courage to do the right thing, even if we stand alone. In the words of Albert Einstein, "The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before." That's an intimidatingly beautiful idea. Don't be afraid to stand alone, don't be afraid to be the heroine of your own story. It will take you further than being saved by a knight in shining armor ever would.
A lot of the time, women wait for someone to save them. We are often drawn to the idea of being a princess so we will be saved by the knight.
Be your own knight.
This is a theme in thousands of stories. Thousands of heroines are created every day, heroines who stand up for what is right. Tris in Divergent, Melanie in The Host, Juliette in Shatter Me. Headstrong women in stories fill our world. Why? Because we want to like them. We admire strong women.
This is exactly why I write female protagonists. Women need to know that they are not the victim. Take the examples of Edgeshifter and Nissa in Segolia. Nissa is a young princess that goes from reluctant hero to a legend in her world. Edgeshifter's compassion makes her a heroine.
Be the hero in your own story. Don't wait for someone to take control. You are strong, beautiful, and independent.
Let that incredible strength shine.

Friday, February 20, 2015

Short Story #4: THE RUNAWAY

The Runaway

My mother left when I was five years old.
Sometimes, in a drunken rage, my father will talk about her. He says it’s my fault. He says that if I hadn’t been such a difficult child, she would have stayed.
 I know better.
It was my father that drove her away. It was his scorching temper, that tendency to react with violence. She could not take it anymore, the constant danger of being in her own house. So she left.
What I will never be able to understand, never be able to forgive her for is leaving me here. Heartless. She left me behind, letting me deal with father all on my own. Selfish. Why didn’t she take me with her? Cold. Didn’t she love me?
I grew up in that cold empty house, locking myself in my room as often as I could. But sometimes, avoiding my father was impossible. And spending time with my father usually meant a couple bruises, whether he was drunk or not.
This is the case today.
Looking the mirror, I can the see the purplish blotches painted across my face my arms my neck. A long-sleeved shirt and wintry scarf to cover my arms and neck. Nothing strange about that. It’s bitter cold in Zaraysk this time of year. I dab makeup on my bruised face. I’ve gotten pretty good at hiding my injuries. No one knows about the abused life I live.
I look in the mirror when I’m done, fluffing my hair. I stare back at the mirror. This is the girl everyone sees. Serious about her studies, fun to talk to, living an absolutely perfect life. What they don’t know is that girl is a lie.
I grab my bag, tiptoeing past my father passed out on the couch. Classes will be starting soon and I can’t be late again. I’ve been beat before school before, making me late. Then, of course, when my father gets a phone call about me being late I get a few more bruises as punishment.
 It’s a fairly uneventful day at school. I put on my usual bubbly face, laughing and flirting and being the Tatyana Galerkin everyone knows and loves. It’s not until the end of lunch that things get a little more interesting. There’s a table set aside for strangers in the cafeteria. I tell my group of friends to go on without me.
“What’s this?” I ask, putting a hand on the table.
The woman standing there smiles. “The Verona Modeling Agency is looking for new talent. We need new, young models, girls your age.” She hands me a brochure. “We’re holding auditions in Moscow on Saturday. Would you be interested?”
Yes yes yes yes yes. Totally and completely interested. Take me with you. Save me from the terrors of Zaraysk. Take me away from this place.
“I don’t know,” I find myself saying. “I don’t have any experience as a model.”
The woman smiles. “Well, come and see, you’ve got the body for it. You might be surprised by how well you do.”
She gives me a card with all the information on auditions and I smile before walking away. Tears prick but I push them back. No crying, not where people can see. I didn’t realize until now there was any sort of desire for something other than escape. But I want this bad. I want to be a model, I want to be loved, I want the freedom. I want it all and I don’t see how I could ever get it. My father will never let me go to Moscow. I’ll never get there. There’s just no way.
That night, I do something stupid. I mention Moscow to my father. I try to tell him that it would be good for me, that it would be an opportunity for better money, that it makes sense. He wouldn’t hear it.
When I go to room tonight, it’s with sore beaten muscles and a split lip. It’s enough to send me over the edge.
I pack the essentials, plus anything a potential model might need. Makeup, hair products, clothing, all the money I’ve been saving for years. I grab the keys to my father’s black Yamaha. He’s not going to be needing it anytime soon. He got so drunk tonight. He won’t even think I’m gone until tomorrow night, let alone notice that I stole his motorcycle.

I swing my bag onto my back before getting onto the bike. With a rev of the engine, I’m gone.

*****Okay, only one more short story to go! Look for THE CHILD February 27th!******

Friday, February 13, 2015

Short Story #3: THE HOSTAGE

The Hostage
Chicago is on fire tonight.
My senses are alive with the heat, the spicy aroma of cayenne peppers, the fire rising from the pan as alcohol drops into the sauce, the ordered chaos of chefs and waiters shouting, the commotion of pots and pans ringing through the kitchen.
I grab my apron, stepping into the confusion. I stride over to a woman, who tastes a sauce before shaking her head.
“Hello, Miranda.”
“Jay, what do you think this needs?”
I smile. Miranda has never been one to waste time on pleasantries, like hellos and good mornings. I grab the spoon, wrinkling my nose as I taste the soup. “It needs something sweet.”
Miranda snaps her fingers. “Like honey.” She lets a couple drops of honey fall into the sauce. “Can you make a sauce for Fettucine Alfredo? It’s crazy in here tonight.”
I start gathering up ingredients. “It’s crazy in here every night, Miranda.”
As Miranda’s sous chef and a saucier in the kitchen, I spend the night making sauces. The kitchen remains a madhouse for the rest of the night. There are endless amounts of dishes going in and out of the kitchen, endless amounts of orders. The night seems as though it will never end. But then it does.
Slowly, the other chefs leave the kitchen, their work shifts ending. It’s not long before it’s just me and Miranda, closing up the restaurant.
“Well,” Miranda says, leaning back against a counter, “Looks like we’re done for the night.”
“Well, isn’t that handy.”
Miranda and I both turn. There are three men standing in the kitchen, none of which belong here. Not only that but they are all armed. Each holds a handgun and they all look like they know how to use it.
Miranda takes a step forward. “If it’s money you—”
“We aren’t here for any money,” one of the men says. “We’re here for you.”
Miranda tenses. I do, too. What’s going on? What do they want with Miranda? Is she in trouble? Am I in trouble? I don’t know what to do or what to say or how to act. Terror is sinking in, as usual, turning everything into illogical paranoia.
“Of course,” the man says, toying with his gun now, “The kid’s got to die.”
Everything starts moving too quickly for me to really understand what’s happening. There’s a gun in my face and I’m staring into the barrel of a gun and I’m not ready I’m not ready I’m not ready I’m not ready to die.
I think the trigger is going off and suddenly I’m pushed so hard I fall onto the tile floor. There’s a loud sound, deafening, and I let out a yell.
There’s no agony, no blood, no bullet. Why? What caused me to fall if not the powerful blow of a gunshot?  
I look around, sitting up slowly. And that’s when I understand. That’s when I see. She’s on the floor, too. Blood everywhere. Tangled limbs. Fading breaths. She pushed me out of the way. She took the shot meant for me.
The man that shot her curses. “We’ll have to take the kid instead,” he decides. “He’s scrawny but it’s better than nothing.”
I’m too shocked to fight them as they drag me out of the kitchen, leaving a dying Miranda alone on the floor. They drag me out into the street and I let them, not sure what else to do. They’re murderers. And if there’s one thing I know about cold-blooded killers, it’s that they don’t care how many people die.
Miranda is proof of that.

*****Thank you for reading THE HOSTAGE. More than halfway there! Only two short stories left. THE RUNAWAY is available on this blog the 20th of February! Don't miss it!

Friday, February 6, 2015

Short Story #2: THE SPY

The Spy
“Why do you want this job?”
I take a deep breath. I've waited so long to get here, spent my whole life preparing for this day, this hour, this moment.
It feels that way. Like this has always been my purpose in life. Even if it hasn't. It was the Catastrophe that brought me here, that realized this was the job I wanted, the job I needed.
“I’ve always wanted it,” I say. I've always been a good liar. The trick is making yourself think the lie is true so everyone else thinks it is, too. “I want to protect people in this country,” I say. “Not as a soldier, not as a police officer, but as an agent. I remember 9/11. I want to make sure nothing like that ever happens again.”
Even if it kills me.
The interviewer fingers paperwork. “It says here that you lost a brother in that attack? Is that why you’re here?”
Not just a brother. Not just an attack. A twin. A massacre.
I’ve tried to forget about it for so long, tried to lie to myself for years, try to imagine that I never had a brother. It never works.
“He was there when it happened.”
The interviewer nods. Approval. “A good reason to want to join.” He starts shuffling papers. “However, we cannot overlook certain qualifications you do not fulfill. We don’t accept anyone under the age of 18 or anyone without a college degree. I’m sorry, Mr. Rothstein.”
I sink. I knew this was coming, I knew they’d never say yes. I don’t know what I was expecting. They only gave me interview so I would leave them alone. What was I thinking, expecting a different answer than the one I got? That the CIA would let a fifteen year old kid join their ranks, let him drop out of high school? Stupid.
“Thank you for your time.”
His face is a blank slab of stone, no guilt, no regret, no pity. He doesn't care if I've worked every minute of every day for this. He doesn't care that I've spent hours training my mind and body to be the best applicant he could have asked for, despite my age. He just cares about getting the job done.
I stand. “Thank you,” I say evenly. Too evenly. The lie comes far too easy. It would have been a good quality for a spy.
I shake his hand, leave the room. I want to be angry but I’m not sure how. I’m shocked. I knew the rules, I knew I needed a college degree, I knew I needed to be a legal adult. But I’d hoped, I’d fantasized that they’d overlook it. If it weren't for my age, I’d be the best spy they could hire. I could have done a lot of good if they had let me.
I pause, standing in the hallway, glancing across the room. A man leaning against the wall, wearing a black suit, hands shoved in his pockets.
“So,” he says, “They didn't accept you.”
I grit my teeth, clench my fists. It’s starting to sink in. My failure. Zack. I failed him, I failed to become the one thing that could prevent deaths like his.
I’m walking away and the man calls after me. “Where are you going?”
“Home. I did what I could.”
The man runs, catches up to me. “What would you say if I told you I could help you be an agent based here in Chicago?”
I stop. “What do you mean?”
He’s smirking a little now. “There’s an organization founded by a CIA agent meant to fight crime in Chicago. Is that something you’d be interested in?”
“Are you offering?”
He grins. Hands me a black file full of paperwork. “There’s everything you need to know in there. If you decide you’re interested, I left my contact information inside.”
I glance down at the file. A red dragon embossed on black. Swirling across the space of the file, smoke rising from its nostrils.
“Who are you?”

The man smiles. Holds out his hand. “Garrett Kingston. Head of the organization known as The Dragon.”



*******Thanks for reading! As the schedule goes, next Friday, February 13, I will release a short story called THE HOSTAGE.********

Friday, January 30, 2015

The Clone, The first of five TRAPPED short stories

The Clone
The Invincibles, short story #1

I’m not human.
This is a truth that has been pounded into my head since the day I was born, created, built. I have no mother, no father. I don’t have a childhood. I came into this world, a thirteen year old girl from day one.
They say I’m one of a kind, that nothing like me has ever been created. They say I am completely unique. They say that no one else has the technology needed to create something like me.
I wouldn’t know. I’ve never been given the opportunity to explore that for myself.
They keep me locked away in here, left to the darkness. I crave sunlight, a summer’s breeze, the harsh cold of a winter morning. But I know those are things I will never get. My creator has deemed that far too dangerous.
Most of my time is spent wandering the tunnels, when I’m not too busy being a lab rat. They’re always checking up on me, making sure my body doesn’t start deteriorating or anything else that could be considered catastrophic.
I wander through the darkness, exploring the hallways. No matter how often I walk through these tunnels, I never make it through all of them. This place is a labyrinth of steel.
I pause, clicking my tongue. The sound reverberates off the walls, sending images across my vision. There’s a man to my left, two corridors down. There’s another man in the hall to the right, and a woman strides down another hallway four corridors down. I avoid all of them.
As I walk, my mind drifts. I’ve been here so long. It has to have been years, even if it’s impossible to know how much time has actually passed. I find myself remembering those first few moments of existence.

“Is she functional?”
His voice reaches me from far away, as if there are layers and layers between me and him. It’s a low voice, empty and cold and dead. There is no curiosity in his question. Not a trace of emotion.
“She should be awake soon,” another, smaller, voice says. “She formed properly.”
“So the cloning process was a success?”
“Yes,” the smaller voice answers. “She will need a name. What would you like to call her?”
“Zandra.”
“Like your—?”
“Yes,” the cold voice answers curtly.
There is silence for a moment. I think about what I’ve heard. Clone. What does that mean? Are they talking about me? And the name, Zandra. Is that my name? Everything feels so uncertain. I don’t know who or what or where I am. I can’t recall anything. There’s nothing to remember. This is my beginning. There is nothing but now.
I can hear a soft pounding, the fading of footsteps. I wait, unsure why I’m so unwilling to open my eyes to an audience. I don’t want them to know I’m awake quite yet. I don’t even know what’s going on but I feel unsafe. There’s something in the air that screams danger.
When I’m sure I’m alone in wherever I am, I open my eyes. Immediately, I’m blinded by—what is that?—some kind of bright light. I blink, trying to adjust.
I’m surrounded by glass. Above me is open but everywhere else is glass. It’s some kind of cylinder that I’ve awoken in.
“Zandra Glass.”
My gaze flickers, noticing the man standing over my cylinder. It’s the man with the small voice. He’s wearing a white coat over his clothes. He looks down at me, standing tall.
“Welcome, Zandra.”

I stop, standing before a dark door. I click. There’s no one in the any of the hallways near me. I push open the door, slipping into the room. If anyone catches me, they could decide I’m better off dead. After all, they say the point of making me was to see if cloning was a possibility. They know it works now. They don’t really need me for anything else. I’ve already been deemed a failure in the two years I have existed.
The room is empty, except for stacks of boxes. Curiosity gets the better of me. I tear open the first box I see, peering inside the small crate. Then, slowly, I pull out the silver whip. It’s beautiful, shimmering under the fluorescent lights. There’s a black belt with it and the whip itself ends in barbed strands. I touch the strands, suddenly jumping as it shocks me. It’s an electric whip. This could be a powerful weapon.
“Zandra?”
I hear the voice in my ear, coming into the small ear piece I am required to carry at all times. I press a finger to my ear, out of habit. “Yes?”
“The boss wants to see you.”
I sigh. “Okay, I’m coming.”
I take the whip, going back to the wall and sliding it into the small crevice. No one will think to find it there. No one will even realize its missing. But there may come a day when the boss realizes I’m no longer useful and it will be on that day that I will need the whip, just long enough to escape the terrors I have been born in.

********For you that haven't heard, I will be releasing a novel called TRAPPED this March. Over the next five weeks, I will release short stories about the characters to help you get to know them better. Hope you enjoyed this first one! There will be another February 6.********* 

Saturday, January 24, 2015

The End of TRAPPED

The end is near.
Exciting. 
Today I'm reaching the conclusion of the end of TRAPPED. A superhero novel. About a girl who is experimented on and wages war against her creator, becoming a superhero in the process. And this is the final revision. Almost there.
And with the end close, I have to think about it. Resolutions are bittersweet, whether you are a writer or a reader. You readers understand this. You don't want it to end but you can't wait to see it, to feel it. It's the same with being a writer. This is only the first of a series but it's sad to know what is in this book will not be written again. And everything is different after this, every character, every scene, every setting. It's all new and fresh. And goodbyes are both beautiful and very sad.
Never fear. The beauty of a new book outweighs the sadness of ending this one.
I guess what I'm saying is I am sad to say goodbye to Trapped but excited to begin Tainted. 
It's going to be an adventure.
Who's ready for its?